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Post by jess5 on Aug 16, 2012 19:43:00 GMT -5
 Rebekah honestly knew being home from Ireland was a bad choice but she couldn't be alone. She was remember the reason why she hated being alone, the nightmares and she was waking up scared, crying and sweating so much. People never knew about how she would have that bad of nightmares. She couldn't be left alone the first four years in her aunt and uncle's care. She would cry herself to sleep and honestly wonder why she was so broken and she didn't even remember why and couldn't tell anyone why she was always so sad. She had just remember her childhood best friend dying in her arms and honestly remember the last words she said to her made her want to cry right now.
''Rebekah, i love you and you are my best friend but i think we both know im going to die, please make sure to be there for my family or anyone who survives this accident'' She said. But the sad thing about that night was that rebekah was the only one who lived, everyone died sadly and she didn't even know about being the only surivior till getting out of the hospital. Rebekah sighed and headed over to the park because she wanted to sit on the grass and forget about everything that has happened to her. She laughed at the fact she went very pink today. Guess pink was her black since she honestly didn't care. She also was in most of the clothes her modeling company sold which made her smile.
She put her shades on decide to run to the park since she was in her pink running shoes. She also just wanted to get some exercise in since she knew she would be eating poorly the next couple of days. She had her headphones in her ears listening to her music with her pink hood up and honestly she knew people would think its odd she was in all pink but she didn't care. She sighed wondering what her brother was up to. She loved how they had pictures together and just loved having there for him. She knew she had to send him a text saying she was home but right now it was time to avoid everyone. She smiled when she finally made it to the park.
She headed for a place in the park that had shaded and where no one would be early in the morning. She smiled at familiar tree she would come to and loved how the pond in the park look peacefully and she sat down there. She listened to her music and not knowing if anyone would try to find her or see what she was up to. She just needed to sit somewhere where no one would bother her. She was very recognizable supermodel but today she wanted to be just Bekah. She sighed and continue listening to her music. She wonder about how life would be different if she never got in the car accident. She closed her eyes and saw herself in another dream but it seem so real again. She woke up scared again and notice someone was standing above her. She wonder why were they standing there and did they hear her scream. She bite her lip and wonder what to say.
''Um, did you hear me scream and please tell me i haven't been screaming that long'' She said. She hated when people heard her scream, cry or anything that made her feel hurt. She bite her lip and wonder who they were. She waited for them to speak but honestly she was so tired because insomnia had been happening that she was so easily sleepy. She was about to close her eyes again and then say something to her. She took her headphones out and wonder what to say. ''Did you say something, I didn't hear you and i'm fine honestly'' She said. She looked at them and really hoped they wouldn't tell her that she needed to go to the hospital. It was just nightmares that caused her not to sleep at night again.
She looked at them and played with her blond hair. She wonder what would happen and would they be sweet and help her or judge her for looking so bumish. She didn't want to talk but she knew she would sooner than later. ''Please if your just going to stare or not talk can you leave me be i just need to be alone right now'' She said. She bite her lip one more time and wished they would just go away already. She just removed her sunglasses and looked at the person with her eyes. She just wished she didn't look tired. She just waited and hoped this person would do something soon since she was just so tired and weak to fight.
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Post by chewiebub6 on Sept 1, 2012 23:05:31 GMT -5
Sherlock always was nuts over Bekah, and he never really could forget her; even if he tried to. Taking up drinking was one of the things that he tried to use to stop thinking, even for a moment, of how much he loved her. That was true as could be, and the worst part about it was that it never remedied the cycle. Drink, wake up from intoxication, think about her, and go to college. Every single day that was what he did; and every moment he was aware, he couldn't stop just having her picture perfect face inside of his mind.
Waking up in the middle of the night, from all the dreams of her, to get a nice beer or two, Sherlock heard something. Was it Bekah? It sounded as if someone was screaming, specifically the girl he was falling for. Not like in their early years he even knew he was in love; he thought that it was just a mere crush. She had something that was hard to find, and he needed that to see her. Pinpointing what he loved about her was hard, maybe it was their past, or even that he just loved her, unconditionally. He stood up above her, to see what was wrong. "What's wrong?"
Noticing the irriation in her voice and being shooed away, made him feel guilty for intruding into a time that she obviously needed to vent. "Yeah, sorry." Quietly, he just was standing, as if it were normal to be like this, in the middle of the night. "Do you want to go to the bar?" Funny enough, he needed to go to the bar to forget, yet he was still asking her to join him. What was wrong with him? He didn't even understand why he even was that way; asking the person who you want to forget to come with you. When was that a good idea? When he fell in love, was what the answer seemed to be. What will she say? Will she be angry? He didn't need this right now; to be pushed away to even have more baggage from her. Going on dates was useless; they weren't Bekah. Only Bekah was Bekah.
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Post by jess5 on Sept 1, 2012 23:30:35 GMT -5
She looked at the boy who was standing above her. It was was him, it was her William, her childhood best friend. She couldn't believe she was finally seeing him again, she couldn't even remember the last time they were faced to face. She bite her lip and didn't know what to say to him. She felted butterflies in her stomach because she knew it had been too long. Ireland was the last place she saw the boy and honestly he had grown up to her. She looked at him and honestly couldn't believe it was him.
''Sherlock, I didn't know it was you im sorry i didn't mean to be mean'' She said getting up from the ground. She looked into the eyes of the boy she once knew and wonder what he was thinking. "What's wrong?" she heard from his lips and bite her once more and debated about telling the boy about it. ''Everything, Everyone just life in general, Sherlock I want to tell you i just don't know if you want to listen to my sad life''She said trying to hold her tears back after say that. She looked at him and hoped her tears wouldn't scary him away. She needed her friend just someone who could make her feel better.
''The bar at this time of the day, i don't think im dress for the bar plus i just look really bad and i don't think you would want to be seen with me'' She said. She was heartless person ruining a relationship or whatever they were but honestly she didn't want to run into Ashton or even Bea. She had been avoiding them since she got home, it had been her and Matt most the time and right now not sleeping she had been up for 72 hours straight. She looked at the boy she once knew. She just wonder what he was thinking about her.
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Post by chewiebub6 on Sept 2, 2012 0:00:02 GMT -5
Thumpity, thump, thump, look at frosty go... wasn't that american? Whatever it was, described how fast his heart began to race, being chilled to a hot, vibrant beat. Not like it hadn't already been a tad broken feeling, due to the fact, that he never really had made a move. Tracking Bekah down, was something that he always wished he would do, but he knew that she didn't feel the same, or at least thought that. Maybe she did, or maybe she didn't, what was the best choice to act on the presumed or the opportunity? Being the little practical arse he was, he decided to play it safe.
"Its alright." The look in his eyes began to soften, and he remembered all of the nights that he spent thinking about making a move. Why not do it? That was the true question to him, but it couldn't be answered, due to the fact too much was at stake. It broke his heart that Bekah didn't want to burden him, he couldn't say no. She needed to have a friend right now, not a lover, this was obvious. And he'd have to rise to the occasion for her, so that he could be the best he could be. She needed him, and he wanted to be there, simple as that.
"You can tell me. I've always been a great listener." Sherlock gave Bekah a wink and gestured for her to lay in on him. He could take anything she threw at him, because she needed to tell him. He wouldn't leave, and not going to the bar was fine. Even if forgetting would be nice right now. Maybe that wasn't such a great idea, to forget someone that he was taking out. Right now he was glad that she said that in response, but she never was able to look bad. She was always beautiful to him, even in the worst of shape. "You know that you're beautiful right?" He laughed, she didn't even understand how nice she looked. That was silly of her to even think she was unkept.
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Post by jess5 on Sept 2, 2012 18:49:21 GMT -5
She had forgotten he always knew what to say. She smiled because he had called her beautiful since the last time they saw each other. She left Ireland at the age of eighteen/nineteen and when over to the states to get a career in modeling and lucky she got her victoria secret job. She still loved her job and honestly it was one of her favorite things about her life. She wonder what he was thinking about she had missed the pasted and she was happy they were catching up at the moment. ''It's not alright, you are one of my best friends from Ireland, I'm sorry if i was mean and horrible and please just let me say sorry'' She said almost blushing.
She was nervous around him because she didn't know what he was going to say or think about her. She bite her lip and started to think about what to start with. ''Please Please don't me babe, i know its been such a long time but i don't want to be judge by you because you are honestly one person i would cry if you judge me okay so please don't do it'' She said almost crying because she hated being so hurt right now. She decide to take his offer and lay on in him and looked at his eyes and decide to take her sun glasses off. She knew her eyes were red from all the crying lately and dark marks from the sleepless nights were clearly under her eyelids. She just honestly wished he wouldn't be too scared or worry about her. She hated how she worried people to much she didn't like seeing people upset about her and that was why she was not sleeping. The past was coming back to haunt her and it was a reminder that she was still the same girl.
She lay on him and played with his hair and looked into his eyes. She had forgotten when they were nine how she made him her teddy bear and that no one was allow to hug, snuggle or put there arms around him. She missed this being in his arms and then remembered about the hidden feelings she had for the boy. She kissed his cheek and looked at him. ''Not a day goes by when i remember how we met and I still enjoy hear you call me beautiful because you just know exactly what to say and make me feel so much better'' She said. She just lay there and waited for him to say something. She was nervous at first but now she was just ready to see what he was going to say to her.
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Post by chewiebub6 on Sept 2, 2012 21:08:54 GMT -5
Sherlock looked at Bekah somehting was just troubling her so much, what could it be? He hoped that she wasn't being hard on herself, because to him, she couldn't do anything much wrong. The worst part was that she never aimed to hurt another, to his knowledge, and his Bekah would have to just forgive herself for whatever happened. Letting another person that you love, apologize was hard for him. She could do no evil, but he decided to let her do that if it made her happy. Maybe it would make her feel even just a bit better in general about herself.
"I would never judge you. I promise that." Sherlock pulled her into his embrace, maybe that would give her a bit of comfort. He kissed her head and waited for her to either pull away or let it out. Bottling things up were one of those bad habits that even Sherlock had picked up. "You can let it out." He kissed her head and pulled her tighter into his embrace.
"I remember all those days, they were the best of times. I wish that I would have done more." Somehow, Sherlock felt like he needed to come in for a kiss. To do what he hadn't before; it was going to have to some time. He couldn't stand on the sidelines, and maybe this would make her feel better. They could be friends, and maybe lovers. He gave her a kiss on the lips ever so softly, and he looked into her eyes. What would the window into her soul say? Once he gazed into them, he had to look away. Would she be angry with him? Or would this make her happy? He didn't know, but he honestly cared a lot. He risked it all, what would be the consquences?
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Post by jess5 on Sept 3, 2012 17:11:06 GMT -5
''It's good to hear that you promise that you would never judge me because you are the one person i couldn't handle being judged by Sherlock because it would break me deeply'' She said. She heard him say let it out and honestly for the first time in a while she felted save crying in front of someone. She let the tears fall from her face and she just cried in his arms. ''Why do you think and say that, you were always there for me and you did enough Sherlock, you were always one of my two rocks and having you right now is all i want and need right now'' She said. She continue to cry but then there it was, his lips gently kissing her's. She blushed after the kiss and notice his head turn away.
She use her hand and it moved it back to face her again. ''I love you Sherlock, I always have and I have always known you had a crush on me and baby please don't let me go'' She said kissing him back on the lips holding the kiss longer and even making it deeper. She enjoy his lips on her and moved her fingers to play with his hair. She didn't know what he was going to say but honestly this was the first time in her life with him that she was not nervous and that she was ready to be happy. She ended the kissed and looked at his face. ''You are that boy i want to be with, please let me be yours because your are so amazing that i can't lose you again'' She said.
She hoped he felted the same way because she had just revealed everything about her and the secret crush. She looked into his eyes and she just felted so safe in the arms of him and just decide to lean her head on his chest and wonder what he was going to think or say or even do. She was nervous but then she was happy that they had finally kissed. She was just wondering will everything be prefect now who knew.
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