> sing it for the world, the chronicles of JIMMY ~

[JIMMY DANGER REGALL]

JIMMY DANGER REGALL
sing it for the deaf, sing it for the blind, sing it for the ones you've left behind,

sing it for the world, sing it for the world!

previous entries: coming soon

[JIMMY DANGER REGALL]

log #11
9 - ? - 12

So, this is going to sound crazy and out of my mind and stupid all at the same time, but um, I moved into a new house. No, it's not my house. You see, the other day, I went on my rounds, visiting Elena and Jax, snagging a bit of cash from this random guy, the usual. Well, I manage to get myself in kind of a pinch. Riley's gang got me cornered in the alley by Hanwell and it didn't end well so to speak. So I was kind of laying there, about to die and you know, I was kind of alright with dying after a little while. Evidentally, someone else wasn't though.

I was just about to go under, but some random kid came and helped me. Can you believe that? I couldn't. I was dying of bloodloss though. It was kind of hard to believe anything. His name is Alex. At some point later we ended up nearly making out in the bathroom near the 7/11 on Fulton St. but, I got ahold of myself. So the night went on and I don't know why but...he just feels different from all the other people I've met. He loves me. And I don't even know what that means, but it makes me feel weak in the knees and fluttery in the stomach, despite how feminine it sounds. What is love?

- Jimmy

[JIMMY DANGER REGALL]

log #12
9 - ? - 12

It's the end of the world. Or it should be. My stupidity has officially reached epic proportions, and now all I can do is lay in this bed, sleep, cry and dwell on how much of a complete asshole I am. I left him. I fucking left him. Why? I thought this was love, whatever that is. I'm a coward, that's why. I'm so afraid, that I have to hurt the people around me. I'm such an idiot. I just lost the best thing that ever happened to me, and chances are, I'm never going to get it back. He probably hates me now, and I wouldn't blame him. I'm horrible. I sicken myself.

My hair is gone. Not completely, but I cut most of it off. Marie disapproved, a lot. Especially after finding me bleeding to death on the bathroom floor. Eventually her and the others got over it though, and even grew to like my new hair. Good for them. At least they can see some kind of good in me, because I sure as hell can't. I left because I thought I was being smart by doing so, I thought it would be better for Alex. Really, it's just ripped my heart out and tormented me for the past few days, and potentially, the rest of my life. I'm fairly confident I will never find a better person.

I thought it would be better this way. Maybe it is. Maybe he'll find someone better. Then again, I'm pretty sure everyone is better than me.

I'm officially 17 now. I left him on my birthday. God, could I have managed to be any more of a bastard to him? I'm almost pleading for death at the moment, despite how insanely emo that sounded. I think misery is the only thing holding me together anymore.

- Jimmy