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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 8, 2012 11:35:49 GMT -5
Alex's tears stopped in a mere moment and smiled at Jimmy. He liked that Jimmy loved him; that they both meant something to each other. Something that was unmeasureable. Once again he put the other boy's head on his shoulder and embraced him. Noticing the change in boy language, Alex looked at the other boy, glancing at his feet, in a shameful manner. "Don't be, it's not your fault."
Still feeling the shiver that trembled through the others body, he whispered into the other boy's ear, "You know, we need to know each other better, boyfriend." He then planted a kiss on the forward to Jimmy's head and pulled the other with him. Maybe that would help the feeling in his gut that Jimmy wasn't just, happy today. He was going to lift the other boy, even if it was ridiculous in nature. Whatever it took, Alex was up for.
Gently dragging the other boy with him with their entwined fingers, he led both of them to the living room. He pushed the other boy down on the couch and cuddled JImmy, maybe this would help. Maybe it wouldn't, but he wasn't going to doubt himself right now. He needed to try to help the other boy; this wasn't about him. It was about making Jimmy practically jump with joy. And if Alex had any say, he'd make sure that it is.
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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 8, 2012 12:28:03 GMT -5
Still feeling bad about it, he nodded quietly in reply. He avoided meeting eyes with Alex, feeling his heart break a little bit. Jimmy hated messing up. He especially hated hurting people, even though he seemed to be really good at it. He seemed to be a cause of misery. Hell, that seemed to be the only thing holding him together anymore. He tried not to look over and just nodded slowly in reply to what Alex had said, still feeling horrible. Though there was a little hope in his heart after recieving another kiss. He didn't let a smile pull at his lips though.
Allowing himself to be dragged along by the hand, he felt his heart flutter slightly, still slightly suffocated by despair. Automatically wrapping his arms around Alex, Jimmy rested his head on the other boy's chest with a light, depressing sigh. His black hair fell into his eyes and the shaking still hadn't worn off completely, but at the moment his fears were being outweighed by guilt. Sad didn't even cover it. He was glad to be with Alex, but he felt too dangerous. He didn't want to end up hurting the boy as he'd done to people he'd known in the past. Over all, he just didn't trust himself. His watered down eyes stared off into space.
Sitting quietly, he managed to briefly make eye contact and look away. "So I'm guessing you're going first, then." he said, his voice dampened and making more of a statement then asking a question. He fiddled with his earring nervously, suddenly feeling the need to get a ciggarette. He remember the pack that he kept tucked in the waistband of his jeans at all times, but figured now would not be quite the appropriate time to take a smoke break.
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 8, 2012 12:45:18 GMT -5
Figuring that this could help Jimmy, in some way, he ran off in a minute and put on an outfit from Star Trek. Maybe it would cheer the other boy up somehow, or make the feeling of hopelessness that he felt at the moment. Quickly he slipped on the clothing, in mere moments and ran out to show Jimmy what he liked. "I have a well, fascination with Star Trek." He gave a smile to the other boy and kissed Jimmy's lips, just for a moment, ever so softly.
Once again he wondered if Jimmy liked that way that he kissed, maybe he was just bad at it completely. He probably really sucked, if not ruined the kissing name. What if the other boy didn't find it suiting? Alex didn't know how he felt if the other boy didn't like it. "So, something about you?" He looked into the others eyes and tried to comfort the other boy the best he could. What would he reveal about himself? Alex didn't know at all about it, not at all. What if it was something big? Nothing would break this love, and of that he was postive.
Looking into the other's eyes with wonder of what he would reveal, caused a little bit of well, curiosity to arise. What would the revealation be? The other, quite mysterious, boy in front of him, he didn't know anything about. Nothing, zip, zilch; he had no idea what it would be.
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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 8, 2012 13:32:22 GMT -5
Jimmy blinked in quiet surprise, curiosity scathing on his mind. A moment later, his eyebrows arched and he couldn't help the smile that cracked his sorrowful composure. Feeling a little better, he blushed lightly in reaction to the kiss, enjoying it while it lasted. He felt a little better, well, a lot better. He was convinced that he wasn't entirely failing at their relationship. He paused momentarily in heasitation at the idea of breaking the mysteriousness he'd grown accustomed to after so long. What would he tell Alex? Something major or something more minor? He bit his lip lightly and took a breath, closing his eyes and exhaling. He knew he'd probably already managed to peak some curiosity with his strange, fearful actions this morning. He might as well explain that.
"...When I was thirteen, our house burnt to the ground. I was locked in my bedroom on the second story, because my mom used to threaten me so that she could keep her marriage with my dad. My dad came to save me, but once we'd reached the first floor the house was pretty much collapsing. A burning board fell on me, but I managed to get out alive. Both of my parents weren't as lucky." he explained, keeping a calm composure before standing up. "You've already seen the scar. But now you know where it's from." He turned around and pulled up his shirt to show the large, pinkish-mauve scar that stretched across his side and his back and always managed to be a few degrees warmer than the rest of his body. His jeans were already a little lower than usual, so it was easy to see that the scar didn't just stop at his waist.
Glancing over his shoulder at Alex, he had an obvious loss of innocence in his eyes. "I'm afraid of fire." he said softly. he glanced at his scar briefly, always slightly amazed that something such as it could have happened to him. Realizing he'd been distracted, he refocused on Alex. "So...what else?" he asked, wondering if maybe they would go back and forth telling eachother random things. Whatever they did, he didn't mind. He liked being able to share about stuff that most people didn't care enough to know about him.
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 8, 2012 21:06:25 GMT -5
Alex planted a kiss on Jimmy's head as the other boy spoke. That was scars that he knew he'd never heal, but it was important. It was important because, that was something important to Jimmy, therefore it was to Alex. Simple as that may seem, it is a tad complex, due to the fact Alex cared about people a lot, and it was only for Jimmy. All that mattered to him, was not losing the other boy, he just couldn't. If he did, his life would be hell. Like before, but more empty, because meeting the other boy made him feel whole. It made him feel safe; Jimmy protected him, and didn't mind all of his annoying traits. Alex loved that and the fact that Jimmy was opening up, he wasn't as closed as before.
"Well, I'm a virgin. Um... well you're my first kiss and my first crush. I just wanted to let you know, if you were wondering in the least." It was a bit of a random fact, but still it was something that the other might have not known. Maybe suspected, but not really knowing for sure. Assumptions are made, but rarely accurate. "Tell me something about you." He gave a playful kiss on the cheek, only lasting mere seconds, and he tilted his head in curiosity.
Alex was depressed that someone as amazing as Jimmy had to experience that. That was wrong, cruel. It shed some light on the other areas of the earth that he hadn't seen before. It was something that he wished Jimmy didn't have to deal with the baggage of, he didn't deserve such things. He remembered seeing a smile crack on the other boy's face and it made him grin a bit. This was random things, but the little things are what count, right?
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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 8, 2012 21:50:20 GMT -5
Possesiveness was a strong suit for Jimmy. Especially when it came to Alex. When it came to his friends, his loyalty overpowered most of his bad traits, and he swore he'd take a bullet for each of them. If it meant protecting Alex, he would take whatever measures neccesary to make sure the boy was safe. That was just how he'd taught himself, and he definitely didn't ever want the younger boy to ever feel the pain he'd felt. That was the last thing he ever wanted for the boy. He wouldn't have wished his life on anyone, even his enemies. He happened to have a lot of enemies.
Arching his eyebrows, he blinked and shrugged. "Well, I kind of figured that. Didn't really know I stole your first kiss though. Sorry...and you've really never fancied anyone else like you fancy me?" he asked, the surprise seeping into his voice towards the end. He searched his mind for something random to share, blushing lightly at the kiss on the cheek. "Ah. Well. I'm a pickpocket. Could probably take everything out of your pocket, write my name on it, and put it back before you even knew it." he answered proudly. Thinking for a moment, he tilted his head in thought. "Well, that isn't really intereting. Um...I've traveled everywhere in the U.K.?" he added in a questioning tone. He shook his head. "Scotland, Wales, Northern Ireland, the whole thing. Raised a bit of hell here and there, finally decided to come back for who knows what reason." He was just rambling now. Jimmy tended to do that every once in awhile.
Pausing for a moment, he smiled slightly. "The heart works in mysterious ways." With a wink, he placed a gentle kiss on Alex's forehead. "Your turn. Unless of course, you have any questions." It was probably the most he'd spoken to anyone about his past and the things he'd done. He usually kept all of this stuff in his journal.
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 8, 2012 22:19:53 GMT -5
"Yes, you're the only person that I ever have and ever will." Alex looked at Jimmy in the eyes and gave a huge grin. He rather loved this game, loads, it was brilliant of them to both partake in this. Wonder creeped into the look in his eyes and curiosity was in bloom. A smile was on his face as the other boy and he realized how different they were. It was almost scary how they were opposites; how would they get along after? Alex hoped that nothing would go wrong, he didn't want to lose Jimmy, ever.
"That's so cool." A look of awe and bewilderment shone on his face and he raised his arm up as if it were like Jimmy was his teacher. In a very twisted way, the other boy was. He flushed a bit and put his hand behind his head. Speaking up, "So on your adventures, where did wrestling come in? I was wondering if you'd teach me sometime." Alex flushed a bit, yet again and gently kissed the other boy on the lips. In his own opinion, he was getting better at kissing. It seems that practice does make perfect.
His heart was pumping faster and he wondered if Jimmy would show him. Would he like it? At least he'd know how to do it. Boxing might be nice, at some time. Maybe Jimmy knew all of the moves and he could be better at it.
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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 8, 2012 22:55:09 GMT -5
His face turned a color similar to that of a red rose and he laughed lightly. He almost wished that Alex would've been his first, but he'd kissed and slept with more people than he probably should have over the years. He smiled slightly at the look of awe on Alex's face, feeling a little pride in some of the things he'd managed to do. "Thanks." He answered. He laughed lightly as the boy raised his hand, as if he were in school or something. The blush on Alex's face was pretty cute too, and Jimmy couldn't pass up the oppertunity to kiss his cheek.
Pausing to think, he looked away before turning back and using very careful words. "Well...I slept around a lot in every town I visited. 'Wrestling' wasn't a really big part of it, but it was where I spent most my nights. I have an odd way of making friends." he said, making air quotes when he'd mentioned wrestling. The more he thought about it, the more he realized that he'd slept with most of his best mates. Blushing again, he laughed nervously. "Er...wrestling isn't what you think it is, Alex. You're using it as a euphamism for sex, sweetheart." he answered gently, trying to spare at least some of the kid's innocence. For once he wasn't being brutally honest.
Jimmy tilted his head at the idea of showing Alex. He wasn't partial to the idea, for the simple fact that Alex was young, he was innocent, and he didn't even realize what wrestling actually meant. Plus, he would feel like he was using the other boy if he were to do that. He wouldn't mind the action itself, he just minded it's affect and how it made him look. He didn't want to seem like some pushy, sex-crazed jerk. He'd known people like that, and they weren't fun to be around.
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 9, 2012 23:17:10 GMT -5
Alex gave a curious look when air quotes were involved in the conversation, he wondered why they were appropriate at the moment. It wasn't like someone was 'borrowing' a sandwich or something, wrestling was wrestling, right? Deciding that the other boy might be mistaken, and a little confused or something of the sort, he gave a nod. A smile erupted when he realized that blushes were on the tougher boy's face, quite a bit. That was something that he just didn't think that Jimmy would allow to appear on his own face even in the most dire of moments, due to the fact his boyfriend was a closed book.
Something was toiling within Alex's head as he heard from the other boy, ever so gently, that wrestling was sex. Wrestling was boxing or fighting, not sexual intercourse of sorts. Tilting his own head, and putting his hand on his chin, pondering for a moment about what the other boy meant, he decided to accept this. Accept that maybe Jimmy was right about wrestling being sex, even if it was mind boggling to him.
"So sex is wrestling?" Alex looked the other boy in the eyes and tried to understand. To wrap his head around the complete picture; that intercourse meant wrestling, even if they were unrelated. "Do you want to go out and have some ice cream?" Dragging the other boy around, not really caring about the response. A bit of puppy dog eyes as he did it was warranted as he kissed the other boy on the lips as he lead both of them outside.
A child, possibly only four-years-old was eating a nice vanilla cone, and he wandered out into the street. Naivety was obvious a factor in this due to the fact that the boy didn't even seem to notice that a black corvette was driving up. The car was driving in a five-miles-per-hour area at least at thirty-miles-per-hour. Alex, seeing the child idly looking a nice rosebush innocently dashed over and pushed the kid out of the way of the automobile. He landed on the other side of the street with the child in his arms, he was quite scraped up.
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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 10, 2012 15:33:58 GMT -5
Jimmy was generally pretty secretive about his feelings, thoughts, intentions and he usually didn't care about what topic he was talking on. But trying to explain to someone as innocent as Alex that his parents were using wrestling as a word for sex was touchy for him. No pun intended. He nearly facepalmed and smiled slightly, laughing lightnly. "No Alex, wrestling is wrestling, but the way you're saying it changes the actual meaning. You're using it as another word for sex." He answered, doing his best to cover up the deep red blush on his cheeks, which wasn't working for the most part.
He didn't complain a bit when he was dragged outside, though it did bother his eyes. Swiftly pulling out a set of sunglasses he slipped some on his head and flagged down the ice cream vendor, ordering before looking over to realize that Alex was no longer next to him. Blinking in surprise, he looked around, spotting him just as he ran out into the road after a small boy. Jimmy's eyes widened and he took off after the two, sliding over the hood of a car and pushing Alex out of the way of the car just in time. Throwing his arms up in defense, only his left arm and a few of his ribs made contact with the car, though it looked a lot worse than it actually was. A few random cracks were heard, but nothing serious. Or well, serious in Jimmy's opinion.
The car was finally stopped, thankfully. He had only sustained a broken wrist and maybe a few ribs, and though there was pain with it, he didn't mind at all. In fact, he didn't even care. He was too pissed off at the moment. Of course, by now the whole instance had caused quite a scene. Quite a few people gasped and sighed in relief when he stood up, mostly alright. He glanced down at the road, seeing his broken sunglasses and sighing, picking them up, trying not to angrily outburst in public, but he was unable to hold back on his emotions at the moment. He was angry and worried and furious and a whole manner of synonyms. Jimmy's eyes weren't the usual calm hazel, they were a fierce and pissed off green color.
"Don't...if you...ugh nevermind." He hissed angrily, storming off in a huff
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 10, 2012 20:19:27 GMT -5
Alex's short, very protected life flashed before his eyes as he realized how close death had come. The grim reaper was on his tail, only mere seconds ago. When Jimmy was walking away, all he could do was grab the other boy's hand and begin to try to kiss away the anger that was steaming from the other's eyes. It was passionate and quick, as if that would somehow calm the other boy in some type of manner. People stared at Alex, not in a bad way, but in what seemed to him a shocked and relieved state. Honestly at that moment, for once, he didn't want to please many people, he just needed Jimmy. He needed the boy he loved, he stopped ever so slowly and gave a puppy dog look to the other boy.
"I am sorry..." Alex looked into the other's eyes and tried to act as if the fury wasn't there. And it was difficult to know that the other person wasn't happy with you. He looked for approval which made him need to please others. He didn't see himself as equal to anyone else, and that was how it should be in his own eyes. Jimmy wasn't going to have an easy time getting away from the embrace that Alex held the other boy in ever so tightly. It could even be called a way to choke another from the intensity of the hug.
"Please don't be angry with me, I-I can't handle you being angry." Alex whispered in the other boy's ear as if it were something like a secret. His eyes conveyed the plea that said, 'Anything but this.' He kept his composure in check for now, it wasn't the right time to cry, for once it might be time to show something more than that. He couldn't lose the other boy to something like this, even if it was who Alex was.
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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 10, 2012 20:58:29 GMT -5
His pissed off expression contorted into one of pain, as Alex had accidentally grabbed the wrist he'd just broken. He cussed quietly and pulled his hand away, instead using his other hand to to pull the other boy close. It wasn't like he needed the kiss as an appology, but it was still nice. Even Jimmy knew he wouldn't manage to stay mad at Alex. Sure, he was fantastic at keeping grudges, but whether he admitted it or not, he needed the kid. Maybe even more than Alex needed him. Sure, he was pissed that he almost lost the other boy, he was angry because he'd broken some bones, and he was furious that his sunglasses were broken, but in a mere moment he was as calm as he'd been before the incident.
Sighing lightly, he pressed his forehead against Alex's and closed his eyes for a moment and thinking on the right words to say before saying them. After a moment of silence, he reopened his eyes, the regular, cooled down hazel color having returned. "I don't want to loose you. Just don't scare me like that." he muttered back, shaking his head and feeling the exhaustion from even that little bit of quick thinking and fast reflexes. His ribs were also aching, and he winced in pain. "Alex...you're hugging me too hard, sweetheart. One of those ribs is broken." he complained in a strained, raspy voice.
Out of nowhere, his phone randomly went off and he blinked at the cheesy 8-bit alarm that played. He gave an appologetic look at Alex and pulled his phone out, checking to see what he'd forgotton. The little flashing alarm clock on his phone told him it was September 10th. For a moment, he narrowed his eyes, trying to remember what he'd set the alarm for. As he remembered just as soon as he saw the name of the alarm. Jimmy's eyes widened and he blinked, closing his phone and staring off into space for a minute. "...Oh. It's...it's my birthday. I forgot it again." he said quietly, as if it were some kind of tragic death or something. Not that he meant to say it in that tone, but his mind was racing with so many things at the moment, it was hard to focus on even the simplest things.
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 10, 2012 23:45:01 GMT -5
"Sorry." Alex released the other boy almost instantly after he heard Jimmy was in pain. A startled look came onto his face as he heard the first words. Was something wrong? In mere moments, he heard about the other boy's birthday. Oh my god. He had to make this very special for the other. What would he get the other boy? What about something well, more personal than something like an object.
A smile crept onto Alex's face as he thought of all the things he could do that the other boy might like. "You know that tonight would be the best time to do it, to well, shag, if you like. Your birthday is special." A blush came over his face, once again making him a tomato and he added, "If you want of course."
"So is there anything you would like in particular? We could arrange a fantastic party with a cake and stuff." Honestly, Alex just wanted this to be special to Jimmy. Obviously the other boy seemed to dread it. He just jumped up and down like a little kid in excitement, he loved birthdays. They were a celebration of the life that you have lived, they were really something that Alex cared a lot about.
Alex thought of the other boy, and what he thought of him. The other boy was perfect in his own way and interesting to him. It seemed that Jimmy cared as much as he did if not more, and this made him comfortable. Jimmy seemed to like Alex's company quite a bit as much as he enjoyed being in it. They were different; they were almost opposites in the purest form, yet a mutual attraction existed.
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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 11, 2012 16:35:05 GMT -5
His birthday was always a day he detested. While others were eager, or even excited for the day they got older, Jimmy dreaded it. Sure, it had been fun as a kid, but as he got older there were less and less things he could manage to get away with. Especially since he had the curse of looking like he was eighteen or nineteen despite actually being younger. Hell, that had been one of the causes of his smoking habit. Someone had idiotically asked him if he wanted ciggarettes, thinking he was eighteen or something. He'd been too young and too caught up in the excitement of having so much freedom to care about what kind of bad habit he was picking up.
At the sight of the smile on Alex's face, he could almost guess what was going to be said. Well, he came close anyways. "My birthday can't be counted as a reason to shag." he replied, rolling his eyes with a small smile. "And it's not my decision to make. That's yours. it's your virginity, do what you want with it. Or, I guess, who you want would be appropriate in this case." He added, tucking the phone back into his pocket. Jimmy shook his head, smiling slightly. "No, not really. I don't need a party or anything. I'm pretty used to not having one. Well, a traditional one at least. Lower East accepts anything they can use as a reason to party." he laughed lightly.
Though, the parties he was speaking of included lots of alcohol and drugs and such things as that. He enjoyed them about as much as one could enjoy getting dragged through mud, but he was still forced to tag along with the others who thought he was 'lonely'. He didn't think of himself as a lonely person, just as someone who was more reserved than other people. He just wasn't an open book like most everyone else he knew. Jimmy liked his secrets staying secrets, and he preferred that his skeletons stay in their closets. Glancing at the sky, he noticed the darkening clouds and quickly led Alex inside the house just before it began to pour, completely forgetting the ice cream.
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 11, 2012 16:59:33 GMT -5
"Well, this is my choice... and I if it doesn't make you angry, would you like to... partake?" Alex awkwardly put his answer to the statements about how Jimmy wanted it to be his choice. He thought, or possibly knew, that he was in the right of mind and that was his choice. It seemed that was all that could be said of such things in nature, and all that needed to be. Why was it a question? He didn't even know enough to think that Jimmy would say no. Maybe he would turn him down and reject him, that would be okay. Alex somewhat asked for it, in a way, to be turned down; by posing the question that was there.
Alex was a bit puzzled at the other boy's answer to his question, what other types of parties existed? Honestly all he knew was that Jimmy was going to have some sort of party, and that was final. He thought of all the people that he could get to come over and meet his boyfriend, but all of that thinking was whooshed away with the on coming storm. A small shiver traveled throughout his body naturally. Jimmy led him inside without being soaked really, and he let out a soft whimper. He tried to act as if it wasn't the roaring thunder getting to him, but that was a complete lie.
He always hated thunder, and as he looked outside the window, he blankly stared at the raindrops finding their way onto the ground. "Did I tell you that I hate lightning?" A look of pure terror was converyed as he briefly looked at the other boy. He was scared out of his own wits, ridiculously so, and the way that it made him react almost made him more scared of it. Lightning flashed from afar and he kept himself from screaming with the fear in his own chest.
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