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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 17, 2012 5:03:34 GMT -5
Biting his lip, he decided to just be silent, and contented with being curled up in Alex's arms. Resting his head in the crook of the other boy's neck, he let himself just cry, just out of a mix of joy and sadness and stress. Jimmy wasn't one of those people who was really loud or pronounced when they cried. He simply stayed quiet and still and just let it all out without bothering to make much noise, and he didn't know this because he cried a lot throughout his life, he knew this because he'd cried a lot in the past few days. Wrapping his arms around Alex, he allowed himself to just move on and let it go.
"Yeah...I really did that." he answered softly. "There are scars on my wrists to prove it. Check the mirror if you like. Or, lack of mirror considering it's gone now. My hair is short for a reason." The more he thought about it, the more surprising it was that Alex, a thing of innocence, and probably the only totally innocent thing in his life had tried to end himself. Jimmy doubted he could've done so in one night, alcohol poisoning was a gradual process, and the worst he could've done was puked his guts out the next morning. But the thought behind it was what counted. Alex had genuinely wanted to end his existence just because of Jimmy. Somehow, he felt much worse about what he'd done than he already had.
Brushing the tears away from Alex's eyes, he thankfully hugged the other boy back, huddling closer to the other boy. "I love you too. More than you'll ever know." he murmured. There was truth in that statement. He really did love Alex, more so than he could ever say with words. And hell, he could repeat it over and over again, just because he loved to tell the other boy, his other half, his soul mate. Gently playing with the other boy's hair, he found himself closing his eyes, the tears having finally stopped by now even with the hurt still in his heart. Jimmy found comfort knowing that someday he'd be forgiven for what he'd done.
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 17, 2012 9:42:27 GMT -5
"Oh..." Alex gave a look of understanding. His empathic nature helped him understand such things, get how far Jimmy was pushed. From what he knew and believed, the other boy was not someone that really hurt themselves with the intent to kill, in the right of mind. He stroked the other boy's hair and hoped that he had comforted some of the worry in his partner. Still he was a bit fazed that this all had happened, he tried to kill himself, Jimmy almost killed himself. They both attempted suicide without the other.
A gave a soft kiss on the head, trying to show that he still felt affection. He did, but Jimmy had a point earlier. How was this going to work if he couldn't trust him completely? Honestly he didn't care, Jimmy was here, he was as well. "I have a question... why didn't you tell me it was you at the coffee shop?" Even with his compassionate nature, he just couldn't imagine as to of why he wasn't informed. A spark of anger was beyond rare, it was a percent in the thousandth place. He was passive, and the only thing that could really boil his pot was if someone had done something to his family, something unspeakable.
For himself, not so much. He always believed that others deserved more than he, and maybe it was sacrifical to do such things, or even just plain selfless. Once Jimmy told him that he was loved by his soulmate, it gave ease to his own emotions. The river that was forming had stopped streaming from his eyes. "Your my Prince Charming." A smile came onto his face, ever so small. Maybe it was from they made it through, whatever this was, and that they were together. That they really were meant to be.
A thought formed into his mind and he somewhat understood how they worked. Jimmy was his opposite, but they shared some things. Like the fact that they both care about each other, and maybe love was the strongest force in the world. And it wasn't just like how he felt about others, even if they were loved by him. It was different, more deep and powerful within him. This was something greater than just any love towards the people around him, it was with his soulmate.
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Post by JIMMY DANGER REGALL on Sept 17, 2012 16:50:47 GMT -5
"...Well...at first I didn't know it was you. But when I found out, I thought you hated me, and if I had tried to appologize, you wouldn't have listened. So I just...tried to grin and bear, even though it killed me inside." he answered softly. He felt kind of stupid for believing that the other boy hated him. Or at least he did now. Back at the coffee shop, Jimmy was so far gone, he could have thought anything. Even something strange and out of the ordinary. "I'm sorry." he murmured, seeming to be appologizing a lot lately.
It was a lot better than being angry though. Before he'd met Alex, and after they'd sperated, he noticed that he was always angry. It didn't matter if he was angry at himself or at the world, it was just always something. He might've not even shown it. He could've looked like a generally contented teenager on the outside, even if a storm of pure rage was raging on the inside. He blushed lightly in response to the nickname, smiling slightly. "And you'll always be my princess." he replied, kissing the other boy's forehead.
Thinking quietly to himself, he almost couldn't comprehend that he'd been given the chance to hold Alex in his arms again. He was almost heasitant to ever let go, even though he knew he had to at some point. It was mostly out of love though. He loved Alex to the point of doing anything for the other boy, whether it made Jimmy happy or not. His love was more than words. Standing up and picking Alex up, he carried the other boy away from the corner and set him lightly on the bed. Sitting next to the other boy, he pulled his knees up to his chest, showing that he had no intention of doing something darker. "Any other questions I can answer?" he asked, hazel eyes full of innocent curiosity.
He just wanted to be sure to get all the questions answered before their relationship began to piece the bigger things back together. Anything that could put the younger boy's mind to rest was good enough for Jimmy.
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Post by chewiebub5 on Sept 17, 2012 22:15:40 GMT -5
"It's alright." A gave a bit of a smile to the other boy. Jimmy didn't really seem like the person to fear anything, or care what anyone thought. Even what he did. It almost seemed as if the other boy believed that it would provoke him, and he didn't understand why this was. It just did not seem like anything he would do, really only a select few moment in his existance was involving violent acts. "I am glad I figured it out." In a mumbled whisper he said this, it was something that unless you were looking for it, you wouldn't have caught it. A drew the conclusion that by reasoning that it was Jimmy, had saved their relationship, and their lives.
A blushed into a tomato for at least ten seconds after being called a princess. Not only a princess, but he was Jimmy's. This still made butterflies fly, even if they were together, and it was something that they did. It was one of the ways that they managed to be adorable. A couldn't argue with that much, and almost every good relationship had a factor of cute habits. As he thought about this his smile grew to be a little bit wider than it was before.
Alex had to think for a second, it just was hard to think of what he wanted to ask. And then it hit him, maybe it was the last of the bunch, due to the fact that it was bugging him a bit. He bit his lip a bit and raised his hand up. By this time he turned into the shade as before and he put his hand behind his head. "Do you have any questions for me or what I did?" That was something that peaked his interest for some reason.
A tried to not read into all of the things this could mean. Maybe the other boy thought that this was all of the story, and it wasn't. Not the complete picture. although it was most of it. Most of his days were like what he told the other boy, but there was something he hadn't told. He felt a bit bad about it. "I'm sorry, but there is more to the story." He said in a bit of a mumble after he asked his own question. At least now it was coming out.
[ooc: Just to let you know, 'cause it might ease some confusion, that he was hospitalized during the time.]
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